Musicality

It's funny how much of my life is wrapped up in music. I mean, I'm an English major. Aren't books supposed to be my life? They are, but not to the extent that one would think. It's still music that moves me forward. I can't hear music without at least wanting to dance. Whether I do or not depends on circumstances, though I'm fairly likely now to bust a move just about anywhere (although, I will be the first to admit that it probably doesn't qualify as actual dancing). But that's beside the point I was intending to make. Even though I should be working on my story right now, and focusing on that for the semester in the hopes of finishing, and yet I am caught up more than ever in the musical side of college life. I had an awesome time at the choir retreat (we went canoeing!) and I almost didn't mind missing out on the dance here (at least, not until I heard about the other things I missed after the dance--the talking wall!). I feel more a part of the choir family than ever before, and it's great. Then there's band. Shannon beat me out for first chair. I was sort of expecting that, but it's still going to take some getting used to. I mean, I know she can play better than me because she takes lessons, butthat used to be MY spot. On the bright side, there's less pressure on me, so maybe I will be able to focus on writing. Although, the music is more difficult this year, and our other flute needs me to be a strong leader. It's strange--I was talking to Amber last night and realized that both of us are in band because we would feel guilty about abandoning such a small program. And that's not the best way to do it. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy playing my flute, but I would enjoy even more finding a place to play violin. It makes the Augie orchestra look more and more appealing. And I vow that I will play in chapel more than just once this year! I refuse to be pushed aside any longer because people don't know what to do with me. The Teel Family Bluegrass Band led chapel today and it was a blast. Why can't I do something like that? Somehow, I will.

-Kim